Emotional week

I have had a really emotional week. It feels so nice to be able just to write a few things. At times it's as though I am so far from the person that I desire so much to be. I am so worried about what I am doing rather than my character and who I really am. There are a number of things going on right now, none to name specifically but enough to keep me on an emotional ride. I know that God is faithful, I feel so foolish even saying that. I feel like i make God, the amazing loving kind compassionate God look bad because I am not all that I should be. I have received so many phone calls this week from people that just truly love me. That reminds me that God has not left that I am still surrounded, I just hope to reach out to people the way that they are reaching out to me in love.

Running

Ok, so this Saturday I was supposed to go for a twenty mile long run. Well as it turns out i was in DC, so instead I have been running really early for the last two mornings. One at seven, which indeed was a stretch and the other at six which pushed me even furthur. I have been having a number of running dates which does make life fun. One of the only things keeping me chugging right now. But I am thankful to Him who is faithful that even when I am not, He remains.

Well the other morning, the seven am run, it was a bit chilly which is so differernt from what it has been, I was even cold for a few short moments! When the run begin, it was morning, and the sun gleamed through the trees. It was saying that perhaps it had had enough of crucially hot days and now it was going to show it's presence through a simple stream of rays on a dew kissed morning. So peaceful. that morning ended shortly, forty minutes but just enough time for me to see God's glory.

Today's run started much earlier than I wanted, but it was worth it. It was an hour and seven minutes. So peaceful. I almost stepped on a turtle, tortuga! Also I chased two bunnies. Fun times. no doubt

collecting these thoughts

Aside from the wedding, I feel as though this weekend has been one of the longest that I have had in a long time. Most of my days are focused around running and yet my greatest running day for this week did not occur, however I have been two running the past two days on some of the most beautiful mornings that I have ever run. This weekend was a bit emotionally challenging. My roomate, in whom I love more than anyone in the entire world moved back home. Every night is walking up empty stairs to a room, mine and hers, empty. Another one of my close friends was living with me this summer and she too is now gone. A pretty lonely time

Wedding

This weekend was really nice. On Friday, after a long night at work, a friend and I drove to Roanoke. I met up with my best friend in the entire world and we then drove to a small quaint church near the bustling city of Washington D.C. The wedding was small, however so amazing. It was great example of the love that God has for us and truly how we are the bride of Christ. It was so interesting. A few friends and I met a men from the church and he was discussing with us how at his wedding, everyone flocked to the bride. And as he pointed it out and we looked to the groom, it was true, everyone was flocking to the bride. It made me feel so special that God made us the Bride. The very thing to be intriguing. As you look at a bride you see her glow, her joy, and thinking of God placing such a significant and purposeful name for his people helps me to understand my significance. Psalm 139, "I am fearfully and wonderfully made, his Works are marvelous, I know that full well."